Still no word from AF civilian personnel about my new job. I'm completely frustrated with the process. I know it's a pain process & I knew it going in but having been selected I now feel like the people is Texas are causing me to lose money (it's a nice increase in pay). Fuckers!
I'm seriously thinking about quitting LE. Just sucking it up & trying to figure out a way to maintain my current weight. I’m done with trying to be something I am not sure that I am…lean & mean.
I hate how I look & hate that I can't wear my favorite jeans. I hate that the pants I bought last year are too tight in the thighs.
I'm so sick & tired of dieting & depriving myself. I'm tired of working my ass off for NOTHING. I want a bagel. I want a pumpkin muffin. I want a caramel macchiato FULL SUGAR FULL FAT. I want chocolate ice cream. I want rice pudding. I want a Big Mac & fries.
We’re 7 weeks in & so far they haven’t taught me a damn thing I didn’t already know & practice on some level. I am following their lessons & habits to the letter but need to start seeing some progress. I need more than ‘take 30 mg of fish oil a day, don’t eat carbs unless you’ve worked out, eat complete protein with every meal, eat 4 or more meals a day.” I know that shit.
I get that not everyone is at the same level & maybe they need to design a separate program for people that have followed or are familiar with PN. But UGH! I’m paying a lot of money to learn nothing. I can’t even begin to tell you the last time I got any feedback from Krista of any value. In fact, she hasn’t even commented on my journal in weeks. It’s not what I expected. There is no daily feedback.
I’m trying to trust that this will work but am really struggling with it. Sandi—what if any frustrations did you experience with the program? I know it worked for you & keep telling myself that there must be something to that…
I probably have PMS.