I got on the scale this morning to find that I'm back exactly where I was 2 weeks ago--165. I drank a gallon of water & ate PERFECTLY yesterday. So WTF???
I have to get past the scale. I know that. I'm one of those people that knows the scale means nothing but I still want to weigh a certain number (140 to 145 TOPS). I know that last year I weighed 145 & was in the best shape of my life. And that's where I want to be.
On top of that I took my measurements...those are the same as 2 weeks ago, too.
It's not PMS bloat cuz I had my period last week--done on Friday.
And if that's not enough, I'm down for the count. Late yesterday afternoon my back started to ache. I took some Aleve thinking it would help. By the time I went to bed last night I could hardly move. Today I can't bend, reach, or squat. I can't even get on the elliptical & do some HIIT.
This sucks.
Marie, I did tell John about this. He's okay with the relationship. If people are willing to say to my face that we must be putting signals out there makes me wonder what they are saying behind my back.
The things is that Jason & I weren't even talking to each other when Mrs Yap asked if we were married. Yes, we had been talking to each other before she came over--the last thing I remember him saying to me was that he was going to get a burger & asked if I wanted one (common courtesy is how I saw it). I walked over to talk to one of Col Yap's assistants. We had been talking about her husband deploying to Iraq when Mrs Yap came over. Jason came over & was standing in close proximity but not "on top" of us.
I don't agree with the "men & women can't be friends," line of thinking. IF the people in question aren't both VERY much aware of the pitfalls that can happen they can be. But that means no being behind closed doors, no going to lunch, no getting drinks alone.
I'm not going to walk away from my relationship with Jason but I am going to be more aware of the way it looks.
John & I are really enjoying each other. Being older & wiser our relationship today is better than it was even when we first got together. We are communicating much better & enjoy each other's company more. If this had happened last summer I never would have mentioned it to him--cuz I probably would have been more than just friends with Jason (well that's not necessarily true either cuz we've been friends for 2 years & yeah, no, never happened).
John's addiction was so bad that he didn't even enjoy life. A few years ago when we were in counseling our counselor asked about laughter in our relationship. At that time I said he NEVER laughs. Today I can say he has a great laugh--can you believe that I didn't know that for 20+ years??? Just hearing him laugh makes me laugh because there has been a HUGE change in him (& us).
You know those couples you see at restaurants that don't even talk to each other. Yeah, that's not us.
I took a oxycodone to help with the pain. It's kicking in. I think I'll take a nap.
3 comments:
Have you had your blood tests yet?
It's really weird about your back pain. Do you know what caused it, or did you catch the bad whateveritwas that I had this week, when my hip was bothering me in an apparently random manner??? :)
I hope you feel better.
No blood tests yet--my appointment is on the 29th. I'm thinking about getting one of the docs I work with to order labs NOW.
My back is just wonky--like your hip I guess. It just started hurting for no apparent reason. I worked out anyway. Stupid. I was very much aware of every move I made last night & nothing hurt. About an hour later I couldn't sit down without John helping me.
I'm starting to feel better tonight. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.
If you still aren't seeing any results we'll change your diet around, but you should be getting only 1500 cals a day on the plan I sent you and I *hate* to start anyone lower than that.
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