I had dreams about having sex with a co-worker that no longer works at the clinic & that John caught us in the act. Dammit.
The thing about my bosses comment was that I wasn't offended because I would much rather someone tell me I'm putting out the wrong type (wrong type in my opinion) of signals about a relationship than let me continue to have people think there is something going on. And Sarah is a great person whose opinion I trust. And if it wasn't me she was referring to, I need to address it with Jason.
If John had a relationship with someone at work like the way I see mine with Jason--platonic, not sexual in anyway--I would be okay with it. So long as it is as described above & how I view my relationship with Jason & so long as when/if I were to view this relationship it appeared that way.
If an opportunity arose for John to view Jason & I from a distance I would hope that MY body language would not give John concern. That's my concern in this. But also if Jason is putting signals out there that I'm oblivious to, I need to be aware of them because I don't want people think I'm encouraging it. KWIM
I didn't fess up yesterday--I had BEER yesterday. Three of them. While I kept my food intake in check, I broke down on the alcohol. Peer Pressure got me, "Oh come on, Deb, 1 beer won't hurt you." Oh yeah? One led to two; two led to three. And now guess who is up A POUND today??? Fuck me.
That's quite an eye opener. Back on track today.
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Well, I think you need to be careful of putting too much stock into Mrs. Yap's observations and co-worker #2's observations based not on what she SAW but on what you SAID. Some people see sex everywhere they go (I am one of them, lol). I think it's healthy for you to re-examine the way the two of you interact to make sure that it's friendly without being inappropriate, but also he IS your friend, so I don't think you should ditch that friendship lightly.
Have you thought about talking to John about this?
I posted a comment that didn't show yesterday. Will this one?
yay! Now I can't remember what I said, except what you already told yourself about the beer. :) An occasional drink (SINGULAR) probably doesn't hurt, but it sure doesn't help. You already know that though. (I wanted a Cosmo so bad last night when I went to Ground Round .... ughhhhh.................. yummmm)
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