Tuesday, December 14, 2010

I’m in the last 5 weeks of the Lean Eating Program & am trying to decide if I want to continue on or just go it alone.  I know what I need to do & have you all for support if I start blogging again.  I have tons of well put-together workout plans at my disposal.  I just need to dial in my eating & lose this last 7 lbs.  I’m right there. 

There is one woman on the program that I have felt a connection with since day 1.  She’s a lot like me in that she was already in okay shape when we started but needed some guidance.  The program is starting to wear on her in that it doesn’t feel normal.  That’s where I am.  Sandi

My friend, Ron, from the clinic hopes to hire John for a contract position they have open.  He would be the maintenance supervisor over 3 guys.  His resume was submitted to the company with an email that said Ron thinks this would be the best course of action for both the clinic & the contracting company.  Hopefully Ron has enough clout with the company to get him hired.  It’s just been 4 work days since the resume was submitted but I’m starting to get anxious about it. 

My anxiety levels are starting to get high.  Very high.  We’re 3 weeks away from dropping the price of the house.  I can’t wait.  I’ve started losing sleep over it.  Really.  I wake up in the night & my mind races…What are we going to do?  How are we going to survive?  It scares the shit out of me.  I am ready to cry at the drop of a dime & am extremely edgy.  I find myself barking at John for stupid shit that really has nothing to do with anything.  I have to pull it together. 






Wennndy said...

Easy for me to say, but as someone who also is dealing with a fairly crushing amount of stress right now, just do what you can to be in the moment. They can't kill you, they can't take away your breath, and you will always know how to make a nice cozy nest no matter where you are or what your circumstances. That's my personal mantra.

Once the anxiety hits, though, it's hard to get rid of. I have had my share of sleepless nights too. Just hang in there and remember, stewing and worrying about something you can't control still doesn't give you any control over it. It's wasted energy. Just try to let it go.

Laura said...

What Wendy said. You can't control your external circumstances, but you can control how you react to them. Breathe deep and try to keep eating right and exercising, and if you can't always sleep be patient with yourself. Sleepless nights suck eggs, but they won't kill you ... and I speak from experience because I've been averaging about 3-4 hours of sleep a night for more than a month now.

As for continuing with LEP: I vote no because it sounds like you could use the money for other things UNLESS you feel as though you need the continuity in your life.

stacey said...

I'm sorry Deb. I hope things start looking up soon.

Doin the Math said...

I second Laura on the LEP. Save your money. You have the tools.


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