Rose posted this as her facebook status this morning…
“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age. ” —Sophia Loren (1934-); actress
And she didn’t even know this post was already in the works!
All this talk about aging must have triggered something in my brain. This morning as I was getting out of the shower I suddenly realized that I am 46 years old! FORTY-SIX! When did that happen? It freaked me out to the point of near hyperventilation! Seriously. It was the strangest feeling!
The thing is don’t feel “that old.” I don’t feel middle-aged. Isn’t that what we are?
This led me to begin thinking about my physical condition. For a woman of our age I am not in bad shape. I’m not bikini model but as I thought about my age this morning I began to wonder if I really want to look like a bikini model. I currently weigh 154 lbs. When I am standing up I have a little bit of a pooch but it isn’t horrible—In fact just had someone ask me if I’ve lost weight (um, nope). I have love handles but nowhere near as bad as I used to; nor as bad as they could be. I wear a size 8 in most of my pants (except those Lucky’s). That’s pretty damn good; it’s smaller than I have been in a very long time. I wore a size 10/12 for years. I’m not completely dissatisfied with my physique but like all women wonder if I could do better.
I am going to be doing some serious soul searching over the next couple of weeks about what my goal would be in going through the LEP. The questions I’ll be mulling over will be: If I do LEP what goals would I be setting? Losing weight? Why? Do I really need to maintain the body of a figure model or bikini model? What’s the point? I want to be completely sure why I’m spending $700.
A lot of stuff mulling around in my mind. I’ll be posting more I’m sure.