I’m back.  Getting up at 4:00 AM after sleeping in a few days is brutal. 

 

John’s dad is doing okay.  Not great but okay.  He doesn’t move as well as he did 6 months ago so the visiting nurse is sending in a physical therapist to try to build up his strength.  John & I doubt it will do any good—Serge just wants to die.  That sounds melodramatic but I really don’t think it is.  He’s 87 years old; should have had knee replacement several years ago but refuses treatment – instead lives on Darvocet (spelling?) & is extremely lonely because he lives 300+ miles from anyone that even remotely cares about him; his own choice but still….The assisted living facility he lives in is very nice & should provide him with plenty of company but he refuses to leave his apartment.  So some of his “stuff” is self-induced but he’s 87 for crying out loud.  He has been considerably more pleasant to be around these last few trips so I guess I’m feeling sorry for hm.

 

We were taking by surprise by the weather.  I checked the forecast before packing to see temps in the mid-60s.  I didn’t expect it to be so warm.  It’s usually chilly when the temps are in the 60s.  Not so this past weekend.  We had to hit TJ Maxx for t-shirts!  Wow!

 

I am having second thoughts about doing a competition.  At all.  Ever.  I do not comply with my meal plans.  I enjoy eating my junk more than I want to do a competition.  I am not at all satisfied with my body comp but I don’t think putting this kind of pressure on my mind is helping.  I’m finding that I want to binge more than usual & then get into a lot of negative self-talk.  I do enough of that without adding pressure.  So I’m reserving the right to back out at any point but I’ll see how things play out this summer. 

 

Workout wise I did two of those Body Rock workouts.  Both were brutal.  I really enjoyed them—the time flew by.  Then we went for brisk walks for 45 minutes. 

 

Today I was back in the gym.  I did chest & arms.  I don’t remember everything I did but do know that I did 1 set of 8 chest presses with 75 lbs—another PB.  I followed up my weights with another Body Rocks workout.  I love the way they are mixed. 

 

Tomorrow I’m going to do legs & then a 3 mile run with Leanne.  UGH.