Food wise I did better yesterday. I did have movie theater buttered popcorn last night along with my cosmos but eh, I didn't eat Burger King or Mickey D's. LOL
My sweet, young thing that popped in is not that kind of sweet, young thing. Though I used to think there was a time when if I pursued he could be. But I just never wanted him that way. Even though he's older, there is the same age difference between him & Erin as there is between John & me. I always thought he'd make a great son-in-law. He did take her out a couple of times a couple years back. She really digged him but he is just too...who knows. He always asks about her & says he wants to call her but he doesn't. Eh.
John & I are doing pretty well. We have therapy this afternoon. Then we're going to my friend, Leanne's daughter's birthday party. I'm probably going to go ahead & move back into the house at the end of the month. I know that I have to just jump or it's just not going to happen. I don't want to live with the fear that we're going to end up in this situation in a few years any way. If we do, we do.
Despite all the crap we've been through in the past few (hell our entire married life) I do enjoy his company. Sex is actually getting better. I've read a couple of articles that said that porn addicts are messed up in the bedroom. I don't know if that's why he sucked in bed but lately, yeah, I'm happy. Outside of that, we're actually having fun.
So, we'll see.
I've offered my apartment to a girl at work. I'm trying to convince her to take it for $800 a month. You can't touch apartments for that in NJ. My lease says that if I sublet I'm still responsible but doesn't say that I can't sublet. So, I'm hoping this girl will take it. She's trustworthy & I think I'll be okay. Yes, we would have our own lease agreement. Yes, I'd make her give me a security deposit. If she'll take it, I will be putting $650/a month (the difference between the actual rent & what she would pay) in our pockets instead of having to pay out $6650 to get out of the lease. The reason I'm not asking her for full rent is to make this proposition a little more attractive to her. She would have to move out November 1st & that, as you know, sucks. It would give her a chance to have her own place (she lives in the dorms) & put a little bit aside for now. Keep your fingers crossed.
Well, time to get moving. This morning I'm going to do squats, step ups, & lunges. I'm going to use a 45 lb bar for my squats, 20 lb bells for step ups & lunges. If I can walk tomorrow I'm hoping to run outside!