I really need to do something to get my eating under control. I'm starting to carry a food baby again. My weight is all in my stomach. If it wasn't all mush you would think I was actually carrying a baby. It's disgusting.
Tomorrow is supposed to be our first office weigh in. There are 4 of us that want to lose weight over the next 12 weeks. We are going to throw $1 into a pot for every pound we GAIN over the next twelve weeks & the person that loses the most weight gets the pot. There is one girl that is well over 330 lbs. She will probably win--she's lost weight before but never keeps it off. We were going to weigh in on Mondays but because she has dinner with her son on Sunday nights we are weighing in on Fridays to make her happy. Whatthefuckever. If one meal is going to blow her weigh in she shouldn't even bother. But again whatthefuckever.
I'm seriously looking into joining the AF. I've thought about it for a long time & am finally taking steps to do apply. I want to go in as an O2 or O3 with the stipulation that I be stationed at McGuire. Because of the demand for officers I might be able to swing it. If I do, I'll be in for 4 years & out. If I were to deploy because of the type of job I'm applying for, I would not be in "the line of fire." And probably wouldn't see anything near the real stuff. I've got the application package on my desk right now.
Dammit to hell, I just typed a whole bunch of shit about running & working out & some shit about a conversation I had with John today. Fucking blogger didn't save.
Short version, John doesn't want me to move back home just yet. He feels he should "date" me for a while. We talked about not having sex until I move back (cuz yeah, we have been). We may not. Don't know.
Workouts...did 30 minute Cardio Coach yesterday, lunges, squats, & fire walkers without weights last night. Did 25 minutes Cardio Coach today. Going to mix & match some workouts to build up my stamina. Going to steal some dumbbells next time I'm at the house to add some weights to my leg workouts after I build up to 3 sets of 12 reps (I'm really weak right now).
There.
2 comments:
That's interesting about joining the AF. If I were to join a branch, that'd be the one to pick for sure. Do they take officers over 40 now?
The eating thing is hard to rein in once it's going, isn't it? I regret letting myself have a few treats because now I want them all the time.
I'm not sure what to say about J. It sounds like he is doing a lot of struggling right now, too.
In the post below, about the guy saying the longer you're out, the harder it'll be for reconciliation ... for some reason that stuck in my head and it makes me mad. I can't put my finger on it quite yet but ... wtf?
I didn't like it either but at least John is pushing me to move back.
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