I am so bogged down in the weeds that I can't see a solution. I'm anal retentive about doing things right & knowing that doesn't help. KWIM?

I'm trying to stop thinking in terms of "no one cares" because obviously some do. That is very meaningful to me. Especially because I know how thankless most jobs are.

I'm going to demand that my office be moved or at least that my door stay shut all the time & that I work by appointment only. I'm going to present it the way I presented it to Jason--I'm part of the care team. The medical side of the house doesn't do business on a walk-in basis, my office should be afforded the same courtesy.

The only problem with keeping the door shut is that I don't have a window & it sucks not having contact with the outside world. On days when I've been able to get away with it I've found it to be very depressing.

I'm also going to propose that the easier cases get pushed to the co-worker. There are about 30 cases that he can take on that won't interfere with his "own responsibilities."

Oh, let me explain the co-worker situation...More than 80% of my co-workers are active duty Air Force. It doesn't work the way the civilian sector does. The economy plays no role in their job security. The civilians that do work with me cannot be given any work outside of their job descriptions--either due to union rules or contract obligations. The amount of work does not (ever) come into play.

And finally, I am going to make it a little about the money. If I have to work overtime--after 4:30--I want time & a half. Comp time just isn't going to cut it anymore. I have 55 hours of use or lose leave with a total of 147 hours in my bank right now (do the math; that's almost 4 weeks of leave). Use or lose means if I don't take a significant amount of time off I will lose 55 hours at the end of the year. It doesn't pay for them to give me comp time for the hours that I work over. The truth of the matter is that I don't work late often because of the lack of overtime pay.

John & I talked about the potential of putting in some additional hours & what I concluded was that I am afraid I might find myself working way too many hours because I'm such a freak about getting things done. So it's sort of a dangerous proposition.

Anyway...

I put my frustrations into my workout this morning. I increased all of my weights again & raised my step to 18" for my box jumps. I'm out of risers! I'm going to have to find something higher (but still safe) to jump on.